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Currently listening to Adele's song

"Best for Last"
"Chasing Pavements"
"Cold Shoulder"
"Crazy for You"
"Daydreamer"
"Don't You Remember"
"First Love"
"He Won't Go"
"Hiding My Heart"
"Hometown Glory"
"I Found a Boy"
"If It Hadn't Been For Love"
"I'll Be Waiting"
"Lovesong"
"Make You Feel My Love"
"Melt My Heart to Stone"
"My Same"
"Need You Now"
"Now and Then"
"One and Only"
"Painting Pictures"
"Right as Rain"
"Rolling in the Deep"
"Rumour Has It"
"Set Fire to the Rain"
"Someone Like You"
"Take It All"
"That’s It, I Quit, I'm Moving On"
"Tired"
"Turning Tables"

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tak salah mencintai,
tak salah juga merindui..
tapi mengapa perasaan tu buat aku serba salah?
tak suka la kna fight for love..
sbb menda tu bkn satu pertandingan..
jujur aku tak mahu rasa kehilangan,
tak mahu rasa kesepian,
tapi jujur aku juga mahu dia berada disisi ku..
tapi dia sudah jadi memori silam..
beberapa tahun yang dulu..
yes Mat, aku masih ingin kan kamu..

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examination is around the corner
n i?
been busy with my feelings..
I don't know why..
I been so sooo sensitive right now..
blame the break up?
naa.. i don't think so!
coz I'm not sad for breaking up
with the man who not loving me as I am..
whats up in my mind is about my sick mom,
my bank account that nearly kering kontang?
whut?? its only 10/11 thou.. ya I know.. boros!
My trip to Bandung,
My dream plat number with my name n birthday on it..
ape lg?
being trap with my lonely feeling,
lack of motivation..
ntah la.. being jealous of all love birds
that fly in front of my eye..
meluat ok.. sbb aku xde.. boleh?
kdang2 rsa meluat sbb diorng tu sedap2 je buat dosa,
aku? yg nk yg halal ni tak dapat2.. bengang ok..!!
ok I'm so pissed OFF!!

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Kawan2,
pernah tak rasa putus asa dengan diri sendiri?
kadang2 sampai satu tahap,
itu la yang Jai rasa pada diri ni..
Give up dengan diri sendiri..
ye, Allah kn ada..
tp honestly, itu la yang Jai rasa..
can anybody help me? Please..
What should I do?