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Its not Sunday morning anymore..
but I'm still smiling..
owh.. what have you done to me..?
I'm so thankful that Allah brought you into my life..
I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
I love the way u make me smile all the time..
I want you to know that..
I love you..


still smiling.. thinking bout the roti flying kiss..(^_^)

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FINALLY...!! 88..
my lucky number..
semalam pegi rumah ummi ngan apak, tgk baby.. comel gile..
pakcik dia pon comel jugak.. ops..!!
Tgk dia tido lame kot..
tapi malu la ngan akak ipar si dia tu..
asyik nak menyakat kite je..
hamboi.. naseb ko bestfriend aku,
kalo x dh lame kena lempang sampai teleng..
tapi yg memuskilkan diri ni, knape kalo virtual,
dia cm steady je ngan kite..
tp ble dpn2, jadi cm sombong,
mcm kite xde depan mate dia,
mcm kite invisible..
apakah itu normal..??

**saya cuba nk fikir pasal org lain sbb somebody tu dh reject kite..
so jgn terhegeh2 lg ye..

87

owh..xthu nk tulis ape.. tp sbnr nye ad yg nk diluahkan..

sy ad suke somebody, dia dlu penh luah kn perasaan dia pd asy juga..

but.. at that time, sy bru pas clash dgn my-ex-bf..

so sy tolak dia coz xnk la dia rase cm sy guna dia just untk lupe kn my-ex je kn..

I actually need time.. bkn totally reject dia..

and now, sy plak rase cm ad feel pd dia..

rasa rindu,rasa syg..

can't imagine life without him..

and now, ad girl yg tgh try dia(agaknye la kot)..

and dia plak cm suke dkat that girl..

and sy rase dia cm xready nk ad commitment

so dia reject sy..ntah la..

sebenarnye xnk luahkan perasaan kat dia sbb malu..

tp fikir2 blk, kalo xluahkan, sure menyesal nti..

so skrng nk act cool je.

dh luahkan, dh dpt feedback, negative ke positive ke xkisah la..

lega skit..

and now, sy btl2 rase cm dh putus harapan..

end up alone...

86

tibe2 baru terfikir..

hari tu kn..bf bf kite,

call kite tanye khabar..

alasan? dah lame tak nampak kite..

apakah? ape point nye?

"wei.. nti gf ko marah aku xtahu eh.. jgn salah kan aku...

lg2 kalo bf2 gf ko mengata aku, cmne?"

plz la.. aku xnk jadi penyebab korng bergaduh or what ever..

sbb aku fikir, gf ko tu bf aku kot..

ops.. jap.. dia anggap aku ni bf dia ke?

and aku thu mmg dia tak suke bila bf dia rapat dgn aku..

ye la.. bile bf dia rapat dg bf2 dia yg lain xpe.. tp jgn aku..

u know what i mean kn?

padahal same je.. pompuan lelaki gak..

wei.. aku touching kot..

aku kenal ko lagi dulu dr dia kenal ko..

sebelum dia jadi gf ko, aku penh hang out dgn ko..

aku dh anggap ko cm adik beradik aku..

tp skrng, dia dh jadi gf ko, aku turut happy..

tp knape dia xhappy?

padahal dia dh dpt kau.. ape lg nk?

fyi, aku xmain la kacau bf org wei..

bkn cara aku..

aku memilih untk diam je sbb,

aku nk jg hati semua org,

and aku xnk org mengata aku..

tolong la wei.. aku dh penat sebenarnye..

asyik jg hati org je..

org xpenh care pon ape hati aku rase..

85

nak sangat pegi Bandung..
nak pergi mengimbau memori arwah..
selama ni dia banyak cerita je dengan saya..
so kali ni, saya nak kesana..
capaikan cita2 kami yang nak bersiar2 di Bandung bersama2..
ya allah, kau permudahkan lah jalan ku..

84: Like a Child

one friend share this video to my wall on facebook..
what a lovely song (if you read and feel the meaning of the song)
Its about a guy who fall for this girl,
but he afraid to confess hiss feeling to the girl..
a days goes by and the feeling growing until he can't handle it..
he become a person with full of jealousy toward the girl.
he feel insecure,he afraid to fall asleep if he woke up,
all the precious feeling will vanish from his memory bank.
he afraid the feelings will lost due to his awkwardness..
he afraid that everything will fall apart because of no reason..
at the end, he realize that all the awkward feeling,
all the insecure feeling is normal as a couple..
then he is thanking the girl for giving him such a wonderful feeling..
and he still in love with the girl..

Kim Dongryul- Like a Child (ft. Alex) *English subs* Live

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hai apehal kalo ad masalah mesti nk tulis kat sini..?
hm.. xthu nk ckp la.. maybe sbb laman ni cm xde orng bace kan..
so tulis buat realest je la kan..
kisah nye bermula dalanm sebuah organisasi.
punya ketua, punya pembantu..
tapi bila tiba saat miscommunication.. hancus semua..
akui kesilapan sendiri, itu step pertama..
ya.. saya punca nya.. allah, ampunkan saya,kawan,maafkan saya..
saya insan biasa,xpunya apa2.. pengalaman inilah yang mengajar saya..
dah tak de tempat mengadu ni..
hanya kepada allah saja saya berdoa..
permudahkan lah urusan saya..
saya nak selesaikan ape yang telah saya mula..
tutupkan lah mulut2 durjana yang hanya suka berkata,
tanpa berfikir menggunakan akal fikirannya..
saya..? akan tetap disini berusaha untuk tidak berkata apa2 demi menjaga hati..
siapa? saya sendiri.. kerana hanya saya ada disini menjaga hati..
sendiri...